Wednesday, April 30, 2008

have you ever had God show up in a big way, right in the middle of your 'situation'? that was my experience today. i sat at my appointment this morning, mindlessly flipping thru an outdated magazine, (everyone already knows marie osmond fainted) and running thru a lengthy checklist in my mind. i looked down at my chewed off nails while going through my questions, my opinions and every possible scenario i could contemplate. i prayed for clarity of thought and of words ( i often leave there saying i have no questions and then get in my car and realize i had temporary mush for brains). i prayed that i would be clear in what i say (i am a rambler, especially in awkward situations) and that he would listen. i also prayed that at the end of this conversation, God would make His plan clear.

the conversation went especially smoothly. he had the info i was looking for. we both were thinking the same thing as far as where to go from here....and wouldn't you know it, that mental checklist of mine- he went right down the list without me even bringing them up.

please don't misunderstand. i knew that God was there in that conversation. and i knew that He already had this worked out....my stress came in wondering when He was going to fill ME in on His plan.

but today...he doubled heaped blessing on me. my best case scenario was blown out of the water by His plan. i did not see that coming. i not only got an answer, i got peace which i know will be followed by a good night of sleep tonight.

there will be bigger conversations. and others have bigger stresses. but isn't nice to know you are held even in the smallish size situation that has your mind all wrapped up today? and you look back at how you had this thing playing out in your mind and you realize that once again, you boxed God in.

i feel grateful that i am not my own best advocate.

i feel blessed to be thought about, considered and interceded for.

i feel overwhelmed by my God, who showed up in a big way today.

i am reminded that this is from God and i will not sell Him short by dismissing it as random things. it worked out because He worked it out.

i didn't even realize how stressed i was feeling, and to be given abundantly more than i even thought to ask about...i think i will just sit in that.

yea God.

2 comments:

Audrey said...

amen

Jen said...

Thank you for making that post. It was a good reminder for me that God is in control and He does have a plan. I needed that.